Sunday, July 19. Sunday July 19.

Yes it is Sunday July 19.

I don't know if there is anything special about today. But what I don't like is that here on Sunday July 19th, we visited by parents in Wisconsin, sans two children. Of we went to sports camp... where I had signed up all 5 of my children. Only three were present.

I am holding a mini jury case in my head about why my children even need visas to enter the US. They are my children. For a second can I take full advantage of my rights and priveldges as voting American.

I am confused by a law that won't let an American bring my own child into America. Looks it's not a loop whole. I don't need a visa to get in the US, why do my kids... Certainly this is not a battle I intend to fight with the real world, but it does keep my brain busy a few times a day.

Packing again is immenent. The time has come to fill them a weight them and determine what else we can bring. Since Trent and I travel, we can bring 4 suitcases of donations. I have a decent portion of medical supplies again.

Anyway if anyone has anything they would like to send, please let us know.


Did I mention it is Sunday July 19? Did I mention I have two heavenly little girls that I am in love with and they are half way around the world and I have no way to give them a hug or a kiss. I ordered more photos that arrived tonight... our family has a void and it is waiting for them.

I haven't felt like this before. It feels as if a piece of me is literally missing. I keep looking for what I have lost or forgotten and I realize there is nothing I can do. I've been buying treats in 5 and plan for 5. I think of my car as full and have to recalculate if someone needs a ride.

Though I connected with old friends over the weekend, I know I need to get back into the groove of my daily-life friends. The ones who know me better than I know me. I need them because I am tired. I feel lonely without my girls. And it's not just me, as the family gathers we notice the girls are not here. Only a short time, I know in my heart it is only a short time, but there are no guarantees. I have to have hope and faith that I will hold those little girls in 10 days, but my heart has to hold out because it might be 14.

God let it be soon, God let the time fill, so we are not empty.
Good give us strength.
Wrap your love around our two little girls give them safety and comfort. Assure them we are coming soon.