Faith. Faith is something that makes life easy while you are waiting for life to happen. It's a bit of a relaxant. Have faith that something, or someone, or some way what ever it is WILL happen.
I thinks it's interesting that having faith requires faith at its core. I have to believe that faith can be, or is, or will be. Faith. I don't think having faith is hard. It's just a decision. Either I have faith that it will be, or I decide that I must make it happen. Either "I will control" or "it will be".
So like a light switch, I have flipped on faith for this adoption. I have to admit I take pause in the fact that I am a total control freak, and I some how just decided that this adoption will be as it will be. Don't get me wrong, there is a lot of due diligence taking place, but no worry or anxiety - only peace. I do keep looking at myself to see if there are any bulging seems on the bag of control that might be trying to seep out. So far, the bag is not bulging. It seems contained quite nicely. Actually, I do have faith that it will stay that way. But, I might check in on it once in a while. That's hazardous waste and you can't just let that stuff blow up!
I have to wonder if this is making sense to anyone other than me?
I guess I don't really care. If you want it or need it to make sense to you it will, if not, no worries.
Faith isn't faith until it's all you're holding on to.
Wednesday March 25, 2020
6 years ago
Kamille - I love this post. I, too, a get 'er done, control freak - have decided to rest in His peace and His plan for this adoption. So many unknowns - more probably than ANY other season of my life and yet I have great peace about all the is 'swirling' around us and how much of it we are NOT in control of!! We don't even know 'who' yet! Looking forward to walking through the process with you!
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